After characterizing Collin and Vitri to my liking, it's starting to hit me just how congested I felt before joining this fandom. Between people maliciously calling bi4bi ships straight, and others acting like queer platonic interpretations of characters they personally ship is homophobic, I've always felt wrong for just existing honestly. Listen man I'm all for freedom of the cringe, but there's a special kind of hell for multisexuals and aroace people in fandoms. I feel like we're always viewed as straight in some sort of way, and it fucking sucks.
That being said, for the first time honestly ever, I actually feel queer. My m/f bi4bi ships aren't straight. My aroallo characters are still aromantic despite being in relationships. My enby characters are not treated as if they are cis for their gender expression. I can enjoy queer platonic friendships without a bitch in my ear desperately trying to change my mind. I can openly scream about being kenochoric and people will love that part of me instead of giving me a side eye. I can actually be myself and write reflections of me without indirectly being treated as if I am cishet. It feels like a weight lifted off my chest.
This communnity on Tumblr truly has been everything my mental health needed. I love being queer ♡